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These past few months have just been really freaking stressful.
Life/School Stuff
Last semester of my program, or so I thought. I'm walking in May, but won't be able to receive my actual degree until December because of circumstances that mean I'll be taking a class as a directed study in the Fall, after completing my internship over the summer.
I mean. If I can find an internship, which so far isn't looking good considering I'm being very picky about what I want but for very good reasons. Basically, the field has two sides to it, very different from each other, and I am definitely very interested in one side over the other. Problem being, that side is less popular with students (many who start out interested in it end up being more interested in the other side by the time they graduate) and harder to find internships and jobs for. And the department isn't very helpful at all--they would rather push us into internship for the other side than help us find internships that are relevant to our interests and what we want to do.
The problem being that the sides are so different that once you get established in a career on one side, it's really difficult to move to the other. Because it's assumed you don't know anything about that side, having worked on the other. Sigh.
Then one of my professors decided to tell me in class, in front of everyone, that because I struggle with statistics (thanks to a legitimate, diagnosed learning disability that the university has record of) I'm wasting my money by being here. And then the entire department except for one person completely minimized the effect this had on me and that I felt betrayed (because the prof knew about this, I had spoken with her extensively about my diagnosis last year when I was assessed) and unable, for my own mental and emotional well-being, to continue the class with her.
There's a lot more baggage there, but that's the gist of the situation. I'm pleased with the outcome but not with the absolutely surreal way I was treated in the two weeks it took to get there.
(I was told she's claiming now that she didn't say "money," she said "time," and that she wasn't directing it at me specifically but at the whole class. My response: "I... don't understand how that's supposed to be better.")
(I honestly believe they've never had a student advocate for themselves so hard and so thoroughly before.)
Also, I feel like my meds aren't really working like they should; I'm way more scattered and unable to focus than I was when the Adderall was working and I don't think the Wellbutrin with working, either. So, I've also had both the ADD and the MDD to contend with more than I feel I should.
The Savitar Chronicles: The Book of Legends
The upside to this is that I now have waaaaaay more time than I did with two classes and an assistantship, with only one class and an assistantship. Meaning, I have actual time to work on TSC: tBoL.
I finished chapter four last night. That leaves three more chapters to go, and I have a general idea of what happens in each. So, hopefully, it won't take too much longer to finish out the book. And I have a couple of scene ideas for the third interlude.
THEN I get to move on to the book I've been looking forward to since I started this ride... two years ago??? Wow. Y'all, I haven't written this much in a long, long time. And it's been even longer since I finished anything I really liked. And I really like TSC.
I'm excited, and I hope y'all are, too.
Life/School Stuff
Last semester of my program, or so I thought. I'm walking in May, but won't be able to receive my actual degree until December because of circumstances that mean I'll be taking a class as a directed study in the Fall, after completing my internship over the summer.
I mean. If I can find an internship, which so far isn't looking good considering I'm being very picky about what I want but for very good reasons. Basically, the field has two sides to it, very different from each other, and I am definitely very interested in one side over the other. Problem being, that side is less popular with students (many who start out interested in it end up being more interested in the other side by the time they graduate) and harder to find internships and jobs for. And the department isn't very helpful at all--they would rather push us into internship for the other side than help us find internships that are relevant to our interests and what we want to do.
The problem being that the sides are so different that once you get established in a career on one side, it's really difficult to move to the other. Because it's assumed you don't know anything about that side, having worked on the other. Sigh.
Then one of my professors decided to tell me in class, in front of everyone, that because I struggle with statistics (thanks to a legitimate, diagnosed learning disability that the university has record of) I'm wasting my money by being here. And then the entire department except for one person completely minimized the effect this had on me and that I felt betrayed (because the prof knew about this, I had spoken with her extensively about my diagnosis last year when I was assessed) and unable, for my own mental and emotional well-being, to continue the class with her.
There's a lot more baggage there, but that's the gist of the situation. I'm pleased with the outcome but not with the absolutely surreal way I was treated in the two weeks it took to get there.
(I was told she's claiming now that she didn't say "money," she said "time," and that she wasn't directing it at me specifically but at the whole class. My response: "I... don't understand how that's supposed to be better.")
(I honestly believe they've never had a student advocate for themselves so hard and so thoroughly before.)
Also, I feel like my meds aren't really working like they should; I'm way more scattered and unable to focus than I was when the Adderall was working and I don't think the Wellbutrin with working, either. So, I've also had both the ADD and the MDD to contend with more than I feel I should.
The Savitar Chronicles: The Book of Legends
The upside to this is that I now have waaaaaay more time than I did with two classes and an assistantship, with only one class and an assistantship. Meaning, I have actual time to work on TSC: tBoL.
I finished chapter four last night. That leaves three more chapters to go, and I have a general idea of what happens in each. So, hopefully, it won't take too much longer to finish out the book. And I have a couple of scene ideas for the third interlude.
THEN I get to move on to the book I've been looking forward to since I started this ride... two years ago??? Wow. Y'all, I haven't written this much in a long, long time. And it's been even longer since I finished anything I really liked. And I really like TSC.
I'm excited, and I hope y'all are, too.
